WHY must i feell like this????

nape aku perlu rase cam nie????nape baru skang aku rase cam nie???nape baru skang perasaan nie muncul blik???nape x last 2 month ago?????WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!stress+tension+sakit ati+jeles n so on..................nape perlu aku jeles ngn dier tiap kali bkak wall dier????lbih2 lg ble terbace komen2 dier ngn *****....n tiap kali bce tu la air mata akn mngalir kluar,,,,aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hurmmmm.....=(...adakah perlu aku block dier??????naper aku perlu rse gni????sdgkn we all dah xder pape...tlg la men jauh2 persaan nie...tlg la...g la men jauh2....aku xnk gni...plzz la...yup!its true dat im still luv him..but i cant accept him back!!plzz laa...
eventhough im n dat dude dah xder pape,,im still cant accept him back...i juz wanna focus on my studies...plz la...tlg la...pergi la men jauh2..plz???????????
sumbody help me plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz?????????????dunno wut to do now...plz....help me....=((
dear GOD....plzz gve me sum peace n strength....hurmmmm...=((